This is a place I feel comfortable, other than my hosting home. Because I can use my own computer to online? Or because I see many foreigners here, Koreans, Americans, and some Caucasian which I can't tell where they from. It's a cafe run by non Chinese, and it's a place for foreigners to hang out. But I am here just to use the free wifi.
Things are getting better. Nope, should say I am getting better to adapt to the environment. The second step will be going moving out from my comfortable zone to meet more people and see more things. Explore Tianjin, that's my goal for the next few weeks. Another goal of my internship is to taste Peking roasted duck....
Oh ya, I need to thanks Ping Ping and her friends for bringing me to the 2 streets. They are not AIESECer. There was a talk organized by my LC and I was invited to give a sharing on my internship. I met Ping Ping there. She is so kind to let me join her holiday outing with her friends. She even pay all my expenses on that day. I feel so guilty.
It's MYC again. I really miss MYC 08. Those sleepless days will be in my mind till the day I die. I regret I didn't give my full commitment in MYC. MYC 09 will create a history in LC UPM under the lead of the superwoman conference head, the supportive local facis, the passionate international facis and interns, and the committed OCs. I hereby wish MYC 09 a success!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I'm scared
Written on 25/5, Monday, 11.30pm
This is horrible. I am alone in Beijing. I came here alone, I found the hotel alone, but I am not alone in this room. I rented a bed in a dorm of 8 persons. Together in this is we have girls from different country, at least from what I can see. They don’t talk, so do I.
After leaving my hosting family in Tianjin, I took a bus to Tianjin railway station, alone. I took a train to Beijing, alone. I took a taxi to Tsing Hua, alone. I rented this bed, alone. I wish there is anyone along my journey who can assist me. I just need to meet an AIESECer, and I will feel much more secure. Yes, just to meet anyone will do.
Things become worse when my hand phone has no coverage here. I am so helpless. Do you know how it feels when you are in a taxi and the taxi driver asks you where to stop but you can’t answer him? It’s really helpless. It’s very unsecure. I am scare. But I don’t cry. The fear has taken away my tears.
Tomorrow is another challenging day. My hand phone is not working, I can’t contact anyone, and no one can contact me. I am totally alone. I am really scare. Afraid of the unknown, uncertain, unpredicted road that I am going to travel in the next 21 hours.
This is horrible. I am alone in Beijing. I came here alone, I found the hotel alone, but I am not alone in this room. I rented a bed in a dorm of 8 persons. Together in this is we have girls from different country, at least from what I can see. They don’t talk, so do I.
After leaving my hosting family in Tianjin, I took a bus to Tianjin railway station, alone. I took a train to Beijing, alone. I took a taxi to Tsing Hua, alone. I rented this bed, alone. I wish there is anyone along my journey who can assist me. I just need to meet an AIESECer, and I will feel much more secure. Yes, just to meet anyone will do.
Things become worse when my hand phone has no coverage here. I am so helpless. Do you know how it feels when you are in a taxi and the taxi driver asks you where to stop but you can’t answer him? It’s really helpless. It’s very unsecure. I am scare. But I don’t cry. The fear has taken away my tears.
Tomorrow is another challenging day. My hand phone is not working, I can’t contact anyone, and no one can contact me. I am totally alone. I am really scare. Afraid of the unknown, uncertain, unpredicted road that I am going to travel in the next 21 hours.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Long update from China
Below are the notes that I wrote last night and I post it today...
I found out that I only have mood to blog at night, so I quickly jot these down.
I declare that I lose, lose to the evil sickness. I have not been eating a lot recently, but I have been throwing out a lot. I start to worry about myself. The more I feel not well, the more I hide myself under the comfortable blanket. This is definitely the wrong way. Since I was small, my cure to my sickness is to go out and meet my friends. That’s why in secondary school, as long as I still can walk, I will go to school, that is a better remedy compare to the costly medicine. May be because of that, I have develop a habit not to see doctor when I am sick, unless I am forced to. Even if PK medicine is free, I also seldom go.
Falling sick in foreign country alone really make you home sick, love sick, and what ever sick you can think of. I miss my grandma’s cooking. I just can’t eat whatever it is here. I miss my mum nagging asking me to see doctor whenever I am sick. I miss my friends back home…
Enough about sickness, I realize that I need to do something else, but not just lying on the bed, like a patient in the hospital. Hence I get up and write these things down.
I have started my internship as a green power, clean energy teacher for two weeks. I am teaching 3 different levels of students. The senior high school students (form 4 and 5), the junior high (form 1) and the primary (standard 4 and 5). All requires different knowledge to be deliver, different ways to communicate and different style to conduct the class. Let me explain one by one.
First class was Tianjin No 1 school. (schools in Tianjin has no name, they are numbered, this is the number 1 school). As the name states, it is the best secondary school in Tianjin.( kononnya :P). I was told that the students are good in English and they are smart.
So this is my first class. Because it was the second day I arrive, and I have no mood to start work yet, I didn’t prepare well on the topic –solar energy. Instead of teaching them, I asked them to discuss in groups and share with the class what they know about the topic. The sweat thing is, they don’t even know how to move into groups. I was told that they didn’t have such thing before. Fine. So the class was basically they themselves teaching themselves what they know about solar energy and me adding a bit knowledge of myself. Erm, actually most of them were not participating, they are just doing their own homeworks. (got so busy or not oh….lol)
Second class, I was teaching standard 4 students. My first impression to them was great, they are so active, not like the bro and sis in form 4 and 5. They were not shy to approach me. Ok, class started. I still can’t get them settle down. They are too noisy and it’s very hard to totally shut them up. I almost got sore throat because of this. At the end of the class, I found that no use to yell at them, coz they have louder voice than me.
Third one, form 1 student. This seems much better. When I enter the class, they are quite. And they are not holding and books or pencil on their hands, meaning, they are not doing their own home works like the form 4 n 5. Great, so far this is the best class I went to. They are co-operative and seemed interested in my topic. The most important thing is, their English is still not that bad. However in the middle of the class, some boys did make some noise. Lol…boys are naughty, no matter what countries they are from.
This week is the second week. The Form 4 and 5 still react the same way as last week, they just ignore me. I don’t know is it because they don’t understand my English, and they don’t bother to understand me, or they are really so busy with their education stuff. It’s ok, at least I see more people looking at the LCD screen when I presented my topic. I went to another class in the primary school. This class is much better, still able to control them although I am sick. The best thing is after I have finished talking about recycling, one of the student came and ask me “ teacher, what else can we recycle”. OMG, immediately my sickness was gone. I feel so great, she is interested to know more. Oh…..dear.
I don’t like to teach, even giving tuition. Reason is because teaching is a huge responsibility. I am not confident with my knowledge and hence I also think that I don’t want to screw people up. However, after some classes, I found out that teaching is an art. Of course knowing your topic well is important, but the way to deliver and the way to control the crowd is another matter.
Thanks to TTT, I am able to cope with the last two. There is something I would like to praise myself a bit, hehe. My class usually starts at 3.30pm, and I only start to prepare my slide at 11am. Of course I did brainstorm on what to teach one day before that. Thanks to AIESECers, I learn how to talk cork in front of the class. I consider myself quite efficient in this, but the emo part comes in when it reminds me I used to prepare session together with my team mates. Thinking back, most of the session I did was partnering with some one else, and most of the time was with another VP who has no Director too.
I have asked myself why am I here and I have thought of going home. But I have not regret to come here. Almost 2 weeks passed, I will say that I have more bad experience then the good ones. But through those bad experiences, and learn something good out of it. I have discovered myself more, what kind of person I am, and what kind of person I was. I have also discovered more about Maniland of China, the history, the people, the food and the culture. If you think that living in China is almost the same as living in a Chinese society in Malaysia, come and try it yourself, come to the northern part of China!
I am having a positive sense for the coming 5 weeks in China. There will be another HK girl and a Canada guy coming in June. I will not be alone even if the OC are having exams. I am getting used to the environment too. So I should be fine.
Wow, what a long post. Anyway, it’s not for people to read, but for my own record. Who reads the whole thing please let me know. I’ll bring you special gift from China, haha.
I found out that I only have mood to blog at night, so I quickly jot these down.
I declare that I lose, lose to the evil sickness. I have not been eating a lot recently, but I have been throwing out a lot. I start to worry about myself. The more I feel not well, the more I hide myself under the comfortable blanket. This is definitely the wrong way. Since I was small, my cure to my sickness is to go out and meet my friends. That’s why in secondary school, as long as I still can walk, I will go to school, that is a better remedy compare to the costly medicine. May be because of that, I have develop a habit not to see doctor when I am sick, unless I am forced to. Even if PK medicine is free, I also seldom go.
Falling sick in foreign country alone really make you home sick, love sick, and what ever sick you can think of. I miss my grandma’s cooking. I just can’t eat whatever it is here. I miss my mum nagging asking me to see doctor whenever I am sick. I miss my friends back home…
Enough about sickness, I realize that I need to do something else, but not just lying on the bed, like a patient in the hospital. Hence I get up and write these things down.
I have started my internship as a green power, clean energy teacher for two weeks. I am teaching 3 different levels of students. The senior high school students (form 4 and 5), the junior high (form 1) and the primary (standard 4 and 5). All requires different knowledge to be deliver, different ways to communicate and different style to conduct the class. Let me explain one by one.
First class was Tianjin No 1 school. (schools in Tianjin has no name, they are numbered, this is the number 1 school). As the name states, it is the best secondary school in Tianjin.( kononnya :P). I was told that the students are good in English and they are smart.
So this is my first class. Because it was the second day I arrive, and I have no mood to start work yet, I didn’t prepare well on the topic –solar energy. Instead of teaching them, I asked them to discuss in groups and share with the class what they know about the topic. The sweat thing is, they don’t even know how to move into groups. I was told that they didn’t have such thing before. Fine. So the class was basically they themselves teaching themselves what they know about solar energy and me adding a bit knowledge of myself. Erm, actually most of them were not participating, they are just doing their own homeworks. (got so busy or not oh….lol)
Second class, I was teaching standard 4 students. My first impression to them was great, they are so active, not like the bro and sis in form 4 and 5. They were not shy to approach me. Ok, class started. I still can’t get them settle down. They are too noisy and it’s very hard to totally shut them up. I almost got sore throat because of this. At the end of the class, I found that no use to yell at them, coz they have louder voice than me.
Third one, form 1 student. This seems much better. When I enter the class, they are quite. And they are not holding and books or pencil on their hands, meaning, they are not doing their own home works like the form 4 n 5. Great, so far this is the best class I went to. They are co-operative and seemed interested in my topic. The most important thing is, their English is still not that bad. However in the middle of the class, some boys did make some noise. Lol…boys are naughty, no matter what countries they are from.
This week is the second week. The Form 4 and 5 still react the same way as last week, they just ignore me. I don’t know is it because they don’t understand my English, and they don’t bother to understand me, or they are really so busy with their education stuff. It’s ok, at least I see more people looking at the LCD screen when I presented my topic. I went to another class in the primary school. This class is much better, still able to control them although I am sick. The best thing is after I have finished talking about recycling, one of the student came and ask me “ teacher, what else can we recycle”. OMG, immediately my sickness was gone. I feel so great, she is interested to know more. Oh…..dear.
I don’t like to teach, even giving tuition. Reason is because teaching is a huge responsibility. I am not confident with my knowledge and hence I also think that I don’t want to screw people up. However, after some classes, I found out that teaching is an art. Of course knowing your topic well is important, but the way to deliver and the way to control the crowd is another matter.
Thanks to TTT, I am able to cope with the last two. There is something I would like to praise myself a bit, hehe. My class usually starts at 3.30pm, and I only start to prepare my slide at 11am. Of course I did brainstorm on what to teach one day before that. Thanks to AIESECers, I learn how to talk cork in front of the class. I consider myself quite efficient in this, but the emo part comes in when it reminds me I used to prepare session together with my team mates. Thinking back, most of the session I did was partnering with some one else, and most of the time was with another VP who has no Director too.
I have asked myself why am I here and I have thought of going home. But I have not regret to come here. Almost 2 weeks passed, I will say that I have more bad experience then the good ones. But through those bad experiences, and learn something good out of it. I have discovered myself more, what kind of person I am, and what kind of person I was. I have also discovered more about Maniland of China, the history, the people, the food and the culture. If you think that living in China is almost the same as living in a Chinese society in Malaysia, come and try it yourself, come to the northern part of China!
I am having a positive sense for the coming 5 weeks in China. There will be another HK girl and a Canada guy coming in June. I will not be alone even if the OC are having exams. I am getting used to the environment too. So I should be fine.
Wow, what a long post. Anyway, it’s not for people to read, but for my own record. Who reads the whole thing please let me know. I’ll bring you special gift from China, haha.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Yeah...I'm back
Wow, thanks to Imran, I can blog. However, I am not free to blog now. I need to prepare for my class later, in 4 hours time, but until now I have not even have a slide prepared.
I am doing better now. I shifted to a new house. I only need to get 2 things solved and it will be perfect. Transportation and internet connection. I am really sick of walking under the hot sun. I am really tired of walking 20 mins to get a bus ride. Yeah, I can online in the home stay but the computer at the home is using the old version of IE and MSN. I can't even upload photo and watch video there. Let's see how I can get things better.
Well, I am satisfy with the home stay. I have a nice bedroom and a bathroom. yeah, I don't need to bath in public anymore....(night mare!!)
I really need to go, hope that I can get back here soon....
Anyone missing me? hehe
I am doing better now. I shifted to a new house. I only need to get 2 things solved and it will be perfect. Transportation and internet connection. I am really sick of walking under the hot sun. I am really tired of walking 20 mins to get a bus ride. Yeah, I can online in the home stay but the computer at the home is using the old version of IE and MSN. I can't even upload photo and watch video there. Let's see how I can get things better.
Well, I am satisfy with the home stay. I have a nice bedroom and a bathroom. yeah, I don't need to bath in public anymore....(night mare!!)
I really need to go, hope that I can get back here soon....
Anyone missing me? hehe
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I'm in China...
Hi,
This is to tell my readers that I am alive in China, Tianjin. The place I stay will have internet connection in 2 days, so i will update more there. I am now at a cafe. I need to prepare for my class later, my first class. (so fast need to work already...:( ). Ya, will update more when I go online again!
Stay tune...
This is to tell my readers that I am alive in China, Tianjin. The place I stay will have internet connection in 2 days, so i will update more there. I am now at a cafe. I need to prepare for my class later, my first class. (so fast need to work already...:( ). Ya, will update more when I go online again!
Stay tune...
Monday, May 11, 2009
Goodbye Malaysia...
I am going to China tomorrow. I still can't believe I get to go exchange. Like I have mentioned before, I won't believe it until I board on the airplane.
I've been procrastinating my packing process. Don't know when I have this habit on doing thing last minute. I have been told that my first class will be on that day of my arrival last Thursday and only today I start to prepare my session.
Talking about that, luckily I didn't prepare it earlier, because today my project team leader told me that it was a joke. Damn sweat. Havn't go exchange already got corned by them. However, I am looking forward to work with them.
Ok, let's stop the guessing game. I don't care about the pass, neither the future, as long as I am happy now, I am satisfy. I am going there with an open heart.
This internship is very sudden. Suddenly I decided to sign up for exchange. Suddenly I went for the assessment board, suddenly I passed, suddenly I am matched, suddenly I book my ticket and suddenly I am at China. My internship has not start, but I can feel the challenges already. "Selling" the exchange program to my grandma and mum, filling up application form, OGX matching (i tried), booking air ticket online, packing (and unpacking and pack again) the luggage, all are new to me. I know there are much more to learn.
It's time to sleep, or may be I can't sleep tonight because too excited. Nope. My feeling now is actually the mixture of excitment and nervous blended together. And a bit dizzy. Don't know whay. (Hope I am not falling sick at this moment...)
For those who concern about me, I will take care of myself. I will keep you all updated on what's happening on me. So, stay tune on my blog and facebook. I will come back in good condition. :P
Goodbye Malaysia...
I've been procrastinating my packing process. Don't know when I have this habit on doing thing last minute. I have been told that my first class will be on that day of my arrival last Thursday and only today I start to prepare my session.
Talking about that, luckily I didn't prepare it earlier, because today my project team leader told me that it was a joke. Damn sweat. Havn't go exchange already got corned by them. However, I am looking forward to work with them.
Ok, let's stop the guessing game. I don't care about the pass, neither the future, as long as I am happy now, I am satisfy. I am going there with an open heart.
This internship is very sudden. Suddenly I decided to sign up for exchange. Suddenly I went for the assessment board, suddenly I passed, suddenly I am matched, suddenly I book my ticket and suddenly I am at China. My internship has not start, but I can feel the challenges already. "Selling" the exchange program to my grandma and mum, filling up application form, OGX matching (i tried), booking air ticket online, packing (and unpacking and pack again) the luggage, all are new to me. I know there are much more to learn.
It's time to sleep, or may be I can't sleep tonight because too excited. Nope. My feeling now is actually the mixture of excitment and nervous blended together. And a bit dizzy. Don't know whay. (Hope I am not falling sick at this moment...)
For those who concern about me, I will take care of myself. I will keep you all updated on what's happening on me. So, stay tune on my blog and facebook. I will come back in good condition. :P
Goodbye Malaysia...
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
The end and the beginning
The end....
EB journey is going to have a perfect full stop. It was the first time I wore LC UPM EB shirt, and it was the last time I worked together with my fellow beloved team mates, as an EB. Thank you for the card, you guys are great! I'll miss everyone of you all! It's really a regret for not able to be there when we end our term.
The beginning...
It this going to be something new in my life, which I believe will definitely mark a memorable memory in the history of my life. I have never left home for more than 2 weeks and now I have to go to a foreign place for more than 2 months. It's really challenging to me. Hope I can cope with every challenges I face. With challenges, I grow!
Now I know how the EPs feel. The preparation to go exchange is not easy though. So many things to plan, so many things to get ready. Plus grandma keeps nagging and reminding. I know she is just worries and concerns about me, but it has turn into something annoying.
To grandma : Please trust me that I can take care of myself. Please take care of yourself too.
EB journey is going to have a perfect full stop. It was the first time I wore LC UPM EB shirt, and it was the last time I worked together with my fellow beloved team mates, as an EB. Thank you for the card, you guys are great! I'll miss everyone of you all! It's really a regret for not able to be there when we end our term.
The beginning...
It this going to be something new in my life, which I believe will definitely mark a memorable memory in the history of my life. I have never left home for more than 2 weeks and now I have to go to a foreign place for more than 2 months. It's really challenging to me. Hope I can cope with every challenges I face. With challenges, I grow!
Now I know how the EPs feel. The preparation to go exchange is not easy though. So many things to plan, so many things to get ready. Plus grandma keeps nagging and reminding. I know she is just worries and concerns about me, but it has turn into something annoying.
To grandma : Please trust me that I can take care of myself. Please take care of yourself too.
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